Dear me,
Medicate yourself to eternal sleep so that the shame is buried with you. They will not believe you, even if they believe you, they shall victimize you for being a victim of such a tragedy. A male raped by a male? A man raped by a man? A boy raped by a man? What is the correct reference or attribution?
Perchance it would have been better if a woman had raped you. Not that I am justifying rape. I can never do that, but this class of rape you endured is more queer than odd. You see, what you are labelling yourself now is what they will label you with stereotypical gender bias. A male who got raped? A man who could not fight back? A man who got raped because he could not resist? Or a boy who got raped because he did not know he was being raped? Which one will it be?
I swear on your soul that they will make sure that they use all three terms on you interchangeably, even when it is unnecessary.
Medicate yourself to eternal sleep so that the shame is buried with you before it surfaces. Even if they counsel you and deliver justice, the title will always hang on you physically and internally. A male who got raped by a male, then later on a boy who got raped by a man, and finally a man who got raped by a man.
Other victims do survive the pain in silence but for you, it will be a dosage of pain and a capsule of shame, for you are more of a queer weird victim than the usual and beyond special. You can not handle this the same way you cannot tolerate and survive it.
Medicate yourself to eternal sleep so that the shame is buried with you. As you medicate yourself, do you think the pain will be buried with the shame?
